Saturday, July 13, 2013 // 6:36 PM
A new life I'm having ever since my first love stood a place in my heart.
I have to admit that LOVE takes courage. Every actions and words matter and it can really affect one,'cause
that special one is someone you cared for dearly.
The first few months were really a honeymoon for us, 'cause it's like someone new in our lives and it interest us to explore and see things in their way.
He is simple minded, and an easy going person. Of course, I love those values of him but, somehow it gives me a feeling that he doesn't have a mind of his own. Maybe he has, just that he wants to respect me or something? Everyone will get turned off when you're out for a date, and we ended up asking questions,"where to go? what to eat? go where?" It sometimes took 30 minutes for us to come up with a decision.
I love him, and that is why I love to do things that he likes. Like going to the arcade. Friends around me knows that I'm not an arcade-kind-of person. For him, I played the games to share the joyous moment with him. Soon, I kinda like playing some of the games.
Haa, and he's really one lazy person I've met so far. It is totally a battle to get him out of bed during a nap. Yea, and the problem with me now, is his laziness. We are both working as temp staff now. Thus, the only time to spend together is on the weekends. Working on the weekdays really took a toll on us and the weekends is ideal for a well deserved rest.
I look forward to every weekends 'cause I know that there is a chance for me to meet him. On some days, he preferred "nua-ing" at home, and I can understand that. We can still text though. However, I can't stop myself from feeling neglected and felt unimportant. It's not about us not meeting, but it is the replies and texts I got from him that affects me. I can predict his texts and after a reply or so, he would ask "what am I doing? Then MIA for like an hour or two? Soon, there was nothing left for me to say 'cause everything becomes predictable. I didn't talk to him about this 'cause I think I'm just being sensitive.
I remembered one of my friend asked me how I'd celebrated Valentines with him. We just had dinner, and honestly speaking, I can't remember what we did on that day. I'm contented that we can meet up on Valentines, but I don't wanna hear any apologies from him saying that he didn't get me a present. His presence is really enough, I don't need an apology.
I really love him, really do.
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